Today is our weekly fast day. I went to the studio and added more doodles on my canvas. The oil sticks that I used to draw some of the symbols, are still wet and I kept on getting it on my hands. I also feel very antsy. I am not sure if is related to my art or to the inner process I am going through. In any case, I have two choices. To stay in the studio and work it on the canvas or get out of the studio, read a book, relax and go back to it another day. Since my days here in Colorado are numbered before our trip to New Zealand, I chose to stay in the studio. But after awhile I feared that the smearing was not going to limit itself to my hands but get all over the canvas, so I called it a day. The inner process that I am going thorough is a deep examination of my self doubts, their origin and the myths I hold about my self worth, success and my place in the world. It is an intense examination and many images and voices from the past rise up to be noticed. I hope that I will emerge from...